Spirit Lead Me

I was listening to this in the car today and the first part of this song instantly provoked emotion and tears that I couldn't stop. It came out of no where and shocked me that I became so overwhelmed so quickly. 

God is calling me  into the water, a place of fear and unknown. A place that I don't want to go to. I feel like kicking and screaming and saying NO! I can't do this. I wont do this! This water carries so many terrifying thoughts.

Through all this emotion of fear, I cant help but feel that God has a purpose wrapped up in this trial. I feel God telling me that although this is scary and unknown, He is there. Already making a way for my family.

Spirit lead me where my trust is without borders.
Let me walk upon the waters
Wherever you would call me.
Take me deeper than my feet could ever wander
And my faith will be made stronger
In the presence of my savior

I have sung this line before so many times. Singing it at the top of my lungs and not fully realizing that God may eventually lead me to place where my trust in Him would have no borders. And calling me to place that I know for a fact my feet would never wander on there own. 

I don't want to go here and I don't want to be put in such a vulnerable spot, but I can tell that God has other plans for me. That somehow things that only God can do will surround me as we go down this path. 

This will forever be in my heart. Saying it over and over again and trusting that my God is powerful and all knowing, and leading me right where He wants me.

So I will call upon your name
And keep my eyes above the waves.
When oceans rise my soul
Will rest in your embrace,
For I am yours and you are mine.

Oceans (Where Feet May Fail) - Hillsong United (Zion)